Where Have I Been?

Alright folks, here's what's become of Joe:

I started to blog about my first relationship in this journey of mine. Her name was Monica. Well, in the course of my taking care of Monica, she started reading my blog, and at first she seemed flattered to be written about. However, several days later, she made it abundantly clear to me that she did not appreciate being written about the way I was presenting, so I stopped writing about her.

In truth, I stopped writing altogether. Our relationship seemed to take off, and I found myself with very little free time (and very little spare money). I even stopped going to church. Monica took the same stance on church that I did when I was sixteen: church was full of hypocrites, and she didn't need a group of people to tell her what she believed and what she knew. Considering my recent history with church and church politics. it was very easy for me to fall into this behavior, and I did. In the nearly five months I was with Monica, I went to church once, and that was only a week or two before our relationship ended.

Our relationship was not meant to be. At first we were inseparable. Then, when the hospital thing came about, we were effectively married. That blinded us both to some very real issues that we both tried to bury. I was looking for a relationship that would hopefully lead to marriage, and Monica was thinking along the same lines. Unfortunately we were just too different to click, so about three weeks ago, we separated.

So here I am once again, alone on a Friday night, with nothing much to do, except the chores that I should be doing (and really have no appetite for). I hope to write more as I go forward. There is a lot I learned from this relationship. I learned about myself, relationships, compromise, principles, morals and a few other things. I'll write about those as they occur to me. In the meantime...

In the meantime I'm not quite sure in what direction this blog should go. Church singles groups haven't seemed to work out for me, but I'm not sure I've been taking the right tack. I went looking for a singles group to meet people, hopefully find a girlfriend, and get married. There are two problems with that theory. The first is that singles groups don't seem to be geared to that concept. I'll write more about that later. The second is that I have to arrange my own life according to the Father's will. Whether or not that means marriage is yet to be seen, but I have found that all I need to be is open and observant. I think I've been trying to force the issue, and that's why Monica and I didn't last.

There's much more to come, folks, that is, if anyone is still reading this. Stay tuned!