Thursday, February 10, 2011

Alone

Fair warning! I'm going to post something that is going to sound whiny and complainy. Proceed at your own risk.

This week has been one of those weeks that just isolates me. I haven't really heard anything from friends. Work has been trying. Things haven't been going my way. All I've been doing is going to work late, getting home late, sleeping late, dodging housework, and watching TV. I've had no social life whatsoever--going to work second shift just kills any chance of that. I was hoping that the weekend would be looking up, but that may not be in the cards.

I have two tickets to the Fort Worth Symphony tomorrow night. I don't have a date or anyone else to go with. My cousin is busy, and my two friends from Roanoke haven't got back to me to tell me one way or the other if they want to go. Because I have a subscription I can move my tickets around, but I have to do it before show time, which means that I have to call the box office and tell them what I intend to with my tickets if I don't use them. Do I want to go to the symphony alone? Not really, but I don't want to waste my tickets, either, and at this point it looks like I'll be the only one using them.

Saturday there's a Pampered Chef party being thrown by Herman and Jen, my Roanoke friends. At least I hope they're still my friends. The last time I hang out with them was three weeks ago. Since then whenever I've emailed or messaged them, they haven't gotten back to me. I've been going over things in my mind, trying to think if I've done something to make them upset at me. I can think of two things. When we went shooting, I met a guy and ogled his .22 for a few minutes, leaving H and J by themselves. Last week I made a comment on Facebook on one of their friends' posts that could have been taken the wrong way. Or they may just be busy, I don't know. All I do know is that they haven't contacted me, so I'm a bit apprehensive about going to see them.

I don't even know what I'll do Sunday. Yizong will be at Ridgles, and I don't really relish going to TCC alone. I prefer to know my enemy before I engage him. Right now I don't know what the political situation is like. I don't know what the groups are, or the ministries, or the needs, or the wants, or anything. As I said in a previous post, all I did was change my paperwork from a hostile church to an indifferent one (at least towards me). I don't think I want to go.

Therein lies my real problem. I don't have any friends to do anything with. H and J are not the church-going type. Truth be told, I don't have any friends who do go to church. Yizong is a minister by trade, and while he's my friend, he's also on duty when he's in church. He can be friendly, yes, but he can't really be my buddy.

So this weekend, it looks like I'm going to be isolated yet again. This sucks!

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